Beware the Crazies

One of my dearest friends performed in an improv troupe and, tonight, instead of taking various forms of public transportation to get to her show, I decided to walk. The walk was longish--I'd say I walked for about 2 hours. A good walk, lined with trees.

I asked a cute boy if there was a shortcut to the street I was looking for. A woman walking past decided I was actually speaking to her and insisted that she was headed right that way.

Great. We're suddenly BFFs.

The first thing she says of any substance: "You know something is wrong when you go to visit your boyfriend in the psych ward and the nurses are more concerned about you than him."

Um.....yeah.

Right.

What you said.

It was a long walk together. I won't rehash the details. I hope her life turns around though. She seemed sweet.

Is That So Wrong?

I lied to him tonight to see how he'd respond. Evil? I think, maybe not so much.

As it turns out, he doesn't give a shit. I'm not surprised. He's a douchebag. Very selfish. Only thinks about himself.

On another front (one that doesn't make me want to cry), I have a wicked crush. Ugh, it's so.....so.....so exciting and annoying. All at once. I just want to make out with him! Grrrr. I'm so out of practice in the flirting and whatnot that I have no idea what to do. I am terrified of coming on too strongly, so I'm trying to just chill the fuck out.

Crushes sure are fun though. It's been about 5 years since I've had a good crush. I've been wrapped up in this one for 5 friggin' years. 5 years is too many years.

I do love him though. I love him and it's time to let him go. It keeps on sort of sucking though. I'm not exactly sure it won't continue sucking forever. Like with one of my old loves. Sometimes I think about him and wish I could hug him and turn back time and make things right again. Sometimes that still sucks, but I deal. You get used to it and it hurts less.

Just have to deal, I guess.

Ah, Crap.

I revealed my secret blog and I can't find a way to edit, undo.

Yes, I have a blog. Yes, it was supposed to be a secret. Yes, I've posted some stuff on here that I didn't want to share.

Oops.

Edit, Undo!!!!!!!! Damn it all to hell. Welcome to my "ninja" blog, which isn't so ninja afterall.